“i want you to fall apart like i did
you to hurt for all of this
all the pain you put me through
i wanna hear you say
i don’t deserve you.”

Of all the things I need or want to say, this song sums it all up perfectly. I don’t know how to make you understand the things I’ve been going through, and I feel like the only way for you to understand is to go through it yourself, but I would never put this feeling on someone else. Even if I could, you’d never be willing to try it because in your eyes I’m not worth it.